"Lead me, Lord i'll follow, anywhere You open up the door..."

So do not fear, for I am with you; 

do not be dismayed, for I am your God. 

I will strengthen you and help you; 

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

~Isaiah 41:10

Sunday night at church, we had a guest singer, Steve Ladd. (former tenor for Gold City) I enjoyed him! But of course, i like southern gospel. (don't judge. lol) 

He read this above verse, Isaiah 41:10 before he sang one of his songs, and i was really glad he did! 

A while back, when i first started going to grace, adam told me i should try doing kids alive, (which is childrens church) with them. i said it might be fun, but i kind of shrugged it off and we haven't really talked about it since then. 

well, sunday afternoon the kids alive "staff" had a meeting about new ideas and all, and adam mentioned me starting to do kids alive because they needed two more girls. he talked to me about it on sunday after he got home, and i was a little unsure about it, but kinda thought it would be fun. 

I'm not really the most outgoing, or talkative person (i know for some, this is hard to believe), i've done some "church plays" in a VERY small church, and such as that..but nothing really serious. so i was a little apprehensive about it, at first. i was praying about it on the way to church and asking God what He wanted me to do, i didn't want to say "yes" if that's not where i belong. 

After Steve Ladd read Isaiah 41:10, i could feel Jesus speaking to me with that very verse. And i knew that God would help me be able to help show Jesus to those kids. 

I told adam after church i'd do it and he emailed brian tonight and told him i'd do it! it's going to be a little different but i know that Jesus will be right beside me "strengthening me and helping me" through it all. Maybe this is going to be REALLY good for me, and help me to break out of my shell fully!!! No doubt, i've come a VERY long way since high school, but i'm still very self-conscience. Hopefully i can overcome that!!! 

I was talking with a friend about it tonight before i started writing and he reminded me, that if i could show Jesus to those kids, that's what mattered, and i could be a blessing to them!!!!  That made me ready to start right now!!!! I know i may not be the best person for this, but i'm going to give it my best shot!!!   I want to make a difference in those kids lives!!!! I feel better about it already! :)  

Just pray that i won't "mess up" and i won't be afraid.
i'll just let Him take control.